i'm sucha girl.

when things reach the end. it makes me so emotional. i have a hard time with goodbyes.

WEENUSES FO LIFEEEE!

i probably have the best friends in the world. I kid u NOT. (definitely better than urs)

Soooooo i guess i never use this, probably cus i have no time, except when I'm my education class. obviously, I am an amazing student who takes copious notes and pays attention to all the things that Professor Bailis has to say. or maybe not.

 

Dinners with Erica are always an adventure. Today was the first time that I actually felt attached to where I am in my life right now. Entering college, I knew things would be different. I needed my freshman year to just mess around and not be serious. I've had the worst schedule for my last four years, and it was finally time for me to just be a normal student and enjoy my time. Along with that, I think I went through some withdrawals. After having a year of 8 am-10:30 pm with NO breaks, it is almost sad when I have all this time to myself. I'm finally getting back to where I used to be, but most importantly WHO i used to be. Things may be significantly different, but regardless, I feel more completely when I'm busy. We were talking about junior and senior year  (a topic I love avoiding). There are so many things I still want to do with my life. I refuse to believe that I'm at the half waypoint. 

 

One of the things I learned last year was congruence. there are millions of projects, groups, events, activities, people that you can associate yourself with, but it means nothing unless you find congruence between your actions and your values. there are millions of things we do just because we are suppose to or because we should, but I've come to believe that its utter bullshit. I can’t imagine sitting in a graduate interview and try to preach and sell something that I never really cared about or something I wasn’t truly passionate about.

 

I couldn’t be happier with the things I’m involved with in my life, right now. When I leave Watts and Rafael and Carlos give me the biggest hugs possible, I feel like that is enough to keep me going. I may spend over 10 hours a week doing Project Literacy stuff, but it’s the smiles, their hugs, and their laughs that are the greatest reward.

 

If you don’t love what you do, then don’t do it.