SO EXCITED! XOXOXOXOXOXOX

my best friends since 1990..scratch that..my BROTHERS since 1990.they are the only ones who let me boss them around. till this day, i could probably hang out with them every single day from morning till night and keep entertained. LOVE THEM FOR LIIIIFFE!!!!

cannot wait!

dessert failure

 
i had a bad luck with desserts today...

cream pie tasted too dark and mango sticky rice was too dry.

SO SAD. how i love desserts. asdfjkl;

life

sometimes we find out who WE don't want to be but finding out what you don't like in OTHERS

a old pic from COC photo lab bathroom stall

sometimes its not about how hard you try. because there will always be things out of your control. its hard for me to come to terms with this. i hate not having control of things that happen in my life. most importantly, i hate that i can't control this. no matter how hard i try. no matter what i say. things may never be exactly how i want them to be. well never be exactly how i want us to be.

la la la liiffeee

dont u love comming home and realizing that everything you want...

you already have =)

project

...yah, if u asked me who i was and what i was about 5 years ago...i wud of never have guessed id be doing this.ha

***** *******

soo. i was thinking and somehow my thoughts came across _______. Lets just call him Peter, just for the hell of it. well Peter is like 40+ has kids and within the last 7 years, divorced his wife whom cheated on him. Luckily hes the best dad in the world. And it shows in his kids...VERY good kids. hes soo supportive, hes raised them well, hes been able to provide for them finaically, teaching them about saving money but still giving them luxuries. hes really is an amazing dad. i look up to him in soo many ways. he is the best single parent ive ever heard of. there are soo many kids that have married parents that dont have a dad 1/2 as good as Peter. 

soo anyways. for the last 5 years ive been telling myself that hes happy with how things are. his kids are his LIIIIFFEEEE, and he loves them more than anything, he love hanging out with them, he loves being a GUY with them. 

then it just dawned on me... I BET HES SCARED SHITLESS. im sure hes scared that hell die alone, without knowing what that true, movie kinda love is, that love that makes u want forget everything and just slow down time. im sure hes scared. this could be it for him. having his kids and then just growing old. no plans to retire with his wife. no idea whats ahead of him. close to being pesimistic because his age isnt helping him. asfdjkal;

imagine going to bed, for the rest of you life. you get ready, brush up, jump into bed and sleep. everynight, alone. no one to talk to. no one to laugh and snuggle with. no one to argue with. no to get into fights with and cry with. no one who you can vent to. no one you can gossip with. no one. u just sleep. and thats it. every night.

what if u die without ever having that feeling... that true love feel? could life really be that cruel, to leave u out of having one of the best gifts in the world...THE best gift in the world?

i am SOOO getting this when i have a kid. if u get it before me... ill cut ur head off =) XOXO

i AM OBSESSED WITH KATE SPADE ADS!

creative director...MARRY ME!

this desperately reminds me that that i need to get my sequin top fixed

i should have known better

once again, you fooled me... this time, its my fault..my fault for thinking that things would be different

i need this spring..

BREAK

i HATE. I HATE when people respond with an answer that they know you WANT to hear, in attempts to get the best possible response back.

WHAT HAPPENED TO AUTHENTICITY?!

why dont the streets of LA look something like this

not everyones dream.but its mine.

no more sweets. THIS IS SERIOUS NOW!

if u get past her man voice. its not that bad. hahaha

even when ur taking baby steps... u never know when ull reach the cliff, at that point, there is not turning back. whats done is done.

when i hear great classical music, i sometimes regret complaining about all those lame panio lessons i had. paino was boring until i had Mitz SuSu (or at least that's what id call her). she finally introduced to me the combination of learning and interest. i acutally go to choose my pieces and i got to add emotion to them, regardless of the decrecendos, ID MAKE ME OWN. ha. its hard to find a good combination of things that you HAVE to do and thats you WANT to do. so when have the chance, to really choose something that you are passionate about vs something you know is expected or safe... CHOOSE YOUR PASSION, beacuse no one can relate to something the way you can, and when it all matters, you'll wish you chose what you believe in.





lullaby by gary stadler

BCBG JELLY

I FOUND THEM!!!! WAHOOO!!!!!!

i hate being a girl

if ur nice but u dont like him, ur leading him on...

if u make things clear that ur just friends and nothigns going to happen, then ur a cold, stuck up bitch.

no  way to win

thanks for dropping off food

thanks for my new bag

thanks for brining misty to see me =)

thanks for my capri sun

thanks for the girl scout cookies

thanks for the French Connection dress

GTB

last night, at krua, i though some bug came out of the chair and bit my ass.asdfjkl;

the most important relationship you'll ever have in your life, is your relationship with yourself

looking for...

~size5 red keds
~white linen pants
~black studded booties

wedgie series....

I hate sundays