La la Love

What does it mean to hold a hand?

What does it mean to hold a hand? To say I'm sorry? To say those 3 small words? To spend time?

It is possible to go through the motions without an ounce of genuine emotion?

As we walk, hand in hand, following the steps we both agreed to take, where do your true intentions fall?

And so you say those feelings are there, that I am the blind one for not seeing it, for ignoring it. But there was once a day, where you eyes fell a different way. Your hand felt warmer. Your kisses lasted longer. You used to say there was never enough time. Those were the days, where I really felt like you were mine.

me&u

I think about "us" before I think of "me"
I plan what "we" will do, not "I"
I think about "our" things, not "mine"


When I think about that night, the night I stayed up dreaming of a life with you, I never imagined any of this. I never knew how spoiled I am. I have everything I need right in front of me.

no change

And just like that, we are 5 steps back again. Clearly, people don't really change.

today, a good day

Today was an AMAZING DAY!

1) lunch with Jono on Valley Blvd

2) Boba at teastation w/Jono

3) Century City Mall w/Jono

bought giftcards

bought some stuff from Madewell

4) class was ACTUALLY interesting

5) break to catch up on emails

6) next class was ACTUALLY interesting

7) seminar was amazing! I loved our speakers! GO UCLA LAB SCHOOL!

8) meeting up with the boy <3>

oh college. oh tuesdays. oh life....today, i love you.

the best feeling is awaking up and realizing that everything you want is right next to you and you just can't let go.

i love you.

spring BREAK.

its that time of year again. SPRING. when everything is.... happy? blossoming? bright?

I haven't felt like this in a long time. I thought I was past this. This is so "high school". Its that time of year. It's like a curse. How long will it last? When will I ever learn? When will WE ever learn? When is enough...ENOUGH?